Diary.

Unemployment diary, and then student diary, and so on.

  1. Phone call
  2. Idle
  3. Homesick
  4. Youtube
  5. Sharing
  6. Phone call (2)
  7. Phone call (3)
  8. Phone call (4)
  9. Accounting
  10. Eating
  11. Student again
  12. Disclaiming

Regular diary and news.

  1. December 23, 2024
    (Originally posted on my Furaffinity as a journal entry) I think I may be a "tormented artist". I never considered myself as such, because (1) I am very often (in great majority) in a good, even mood, and (2) I believe everyone is tormented to some extent, and many are even more tormented than I am, or have much better reasons to be. But I leave social media regularly, delete everything; I come back, I have a good time, and something happens, online or not, and I isolate myself again. There's surely some kind of underlying issue such as autistic burnout which not being so sedentary would probably fix. In any case, maybe I deserve the "tormented artist" title. And, in any case, thanks for your continuing patience for my antics. In any case, I've kept everything in the MEGA archive and in my FA account, and on here.
  2. December 6, 2024
    Doctor?... I used to joke about that, but I can't imagine anything else I could do now. I'd be aged (not "old") by the time I finish my studies, but I'd have a few years left doing some good out there.
  3. December 4, 2024
    Someone very close to me (family) told me to kill myself. I need some time to deal with the feelings this, and all I've been suffering through the past few months, have given me. I'll be alright in a little while. Just need a small break.
  4. November 12, 2024
    I got an answer for the janitor position! I didn't get the job.
  5. November 9, 2024
    In a sort of callback to the September 24, 2024 entry, I sent a letter to get a low-stakes job as a janitor at a local school. No answer, again. This is really reflecting upon my own psyche! I feel worthless and unwanted, without any skill I could put to use helping people or getting a job. I know this isn't true, but this is a feeling I struggle with that rationalizing (bad economy, record unemployment in the country, etc.) doesn't entirely ease up.
  6. November 5, 2024
    It's hard to be forced to change career paths. I've been working and studying for more than a decade for the same kind of job and I have to change. Right back at the start.
    Careers aren't someone's life, not entirely. But a job is mostly required to live. It'd be easier if getting a job was easier. I could do something to help myself.
  7. October 14, 2024
    I enrolled into a course and finally have something to look forward to besides waiting for companies to answer my letters (which they never do). If I go through it, and get my diploma (and a job), I will have effectively changed career paths quite dramatically, which is exciting.
    To celebrate, I've added a new page in which I've posted some new drawings. Enjoy!
  8. September 24, 2024
    Even though I am proud of my academic accomplishments, I don't like to mention my studies or diplomas. But I find it bitterly funny that I've got several years of post-high-school studies and yet I can't get a job carrying boxes of books around. No answer even after a phone call! "Yes, we have your application, we'll get back to you soon. Your interest is noted by the way! :)"
    The job was supposed to begin last month... I imagine they've found someone else.
    Maybe I should prove I can carry boxes by putting up videos of me carrying boxes on Youtube?
  9. August 23, 2024
    My life is not back on track but I made an account anyway, or rather repurposed an older account I didn't use into a ciircuit account.
    I've been out of a job for some time now. Earlier this week, I had a meeting with a government-funded agency supposed to help me find a job and get some unemployment benefits (which I don't qualify for anyway).
    Whereas I'd been rather good and quiet, molded into following a more or less classic academic carreer, a very bad experience worsened my vision of (public) research past a tipping point.
    I am now embracing more and more the idea of fleeing into the woods and living from nuts, acorns, and berries. Or learning a trade.
  10. August 22, 2024
    I think I'll go back to Twitter/X/Txitter once my life is back on track.
  11. July 5, 2024
    I've added a contact page, in which I will answer questions. This means the contact page will double as an FAQ... for now.
    I've also added a signature of sorts on most pictures of the website; it's a small grey band stuck below the pictures that contains a link to this page. I've also thrown in the signature date for free.
  12. June 28, 2024
    I've written a little booklet on graph theory!
  13. June 4, 2024 (Tuesday)
    New "recipe" (Carol's Cooking Fails). Failure ain't so bad. Just don't eat weird things that can make you sick.
  14. June 3, 2024 (Monday)
    This is terrifying.
  15. June 1, 2024 (Saturday)
    If you're just pouring something clear out of context, I'll assume it's regular water, but I won't drink it.
    I've put recent illustrations and drawings in the ILLUSTRATIONS page.
    "Some ingredients go together like Karol and breakups." Would you think Carol would be able to say that? I didn't think so either. She doesn't strike me as someone who would do mean jokes like that. She would think it though. She isn't naive.
  16. May 31, 2024 (Friday)
    Revamped website to tidy things out. I will add content and pictures back.
    Decided to continue illustrating Carol's recipes (Kiwi Salad).
    Missing Twitter and friends there. May try BlueSky.
  17. October 18th, 2023 (Wednesday)
    I've put Carol's recipes in book form. Available here.